One month.

Wow, it's been a month since I hopped on a plane back to Michigan. The first two weeks I was home were absolutely shit crazy: processing into the unit, going back to work, and getting started as an extra in Red Dawn. The third week went by relatively quickly since it was all filming, and now things have kind of slowed down. I was pretty happy/content with the way life was going, but now... meh. Maybe things are too slow?

There's so much stuff to take care of involving the future - Army paperwork, figuring out career plans after I come back from Iraq, etc.
- Making whatever cinematic projects with Ivan
- Military consultant to the entertainment industry
- Grad school for public policy/maybe law school?

I wish I could stay in touch with my close friends, been having a few conversations about how to prioritize relationships given our current circumstances.

When I was really down this week, I found "Beautiful" by Eminem to really resonate with the way I was feeling. Interesting, because it's not the first time I've found his music to be really relevant to my life, and it also begs the question: does listening to Eminem reflect my mood, or exacerbate it?

When I graduated from Basic and AIT, I thought I had really accomplished something in my life, but nowadays I wonder...



Am I really a confident badass now? Or am I hiding behind a uniform one weekend a month? Have I even really changed at all? Have my dreams really come true?

I guess these are all rhetorical questions for me to chew on.